Kiva is
six weeks old today! I can
hardly believe how quickly the last six weeks have gone by. Here it
is, nearly the end of March already, and I haven't shared any news
with you guys at all since the day Kiva was born. Well, I'm going to
remedy that right now, because I've got some absolutely huge news to
tell you. I can't exactly say it's good
news – at least not from my perspective – but I can definitely
say it's significant.
Let me
do the quick household update first, though, okay? I'm sure you guys
will want to know what's going on with Rommie and Michael these days,
especially since the news is good. Michael finally agreed that he and
Rommie should attend couples' counselling. The entire household
breathed a collective sigh of relief when we found out about that.
We all really want them to work things out, mainly for them but also
for us. The tension around here when Michael came over to see his
kids was getting unbearable.
Personally,
I think our parents might've had something to do with convincing
Michael that the only way to fix things is to get professional help.
In the long run, though, it doesn't really matter how he came to the
decision. The important thing is that he's willing to try and make
the situation better.
On the
subject of our parents, they came for a visit just after Kiva was
born. They were here to meet Kiva, of course, but their real purpose
in coming was so that they could take Skyla and Pax back to the
country with them for an extended stay. My mother's idea was for Sini
and me to be able to focus on Kiva without having to worry about the
demands of our other kids. I have to say, it was great to be able to
do that. I missed Pax and Skyla like crazy all the time they were
gone but, looking back on it, I think following Mum's plan was in
everyone's best interests.
Pax and
Skyla came home last weekend. Skyla is unimpressed by her baby
sister, to say the least, but Pax is just as much in love with her as
he was on the day she was born. Now that we've got Kiva's routine
established, it's easier for us to let Pax help us take care of her.
He loves doing things for her, although there's some stuff which he
maintains is not in his job description. For instance, he's totally
grossed out by the reality of diaper-changing and there's no way
we'll ever convince him to help with the actual changing part,
but he's great at fetching things like baby powder and wet wipes. Pax
loves to dress his baby sister. He's utterly fascinated by how small
her clothes are and is particularly enamoured of her tiny socks.
Yesterday, Pax learned how to give Kiva a bath. We'd never let him do
that unsupervised, but Sini and I both think he should be allowed to
help as much as he wants to, as long as one of us is there to keep an
eye on things.
One
might think that the highlight of yesterday was Pax's adventure in
baby washing and, if yesterday had been an average day, that probably
would have been the high point. As I'm sure you've figured out by
now, however, I'm about to tell you that yesterday was not an
average day.
Oh,
it started out normally enough. We all got up and had breakfast, and
then Pax played with Skyla while Sini fed Kiva and I got ready for
school. Sini seemed a little restless and I thought Pax was a little
more energetic than usual, but I just chalked that up to the bad
weather and their inability to get out of the house for a few days.
In my wildest dreams I couldn't have imagined it to be a forerunner
of a Big Event. But it was.
Little did I realize that Pax's and Sini's unusual moods were really
the first sign of the biggest Big Event ever.
The
day proceeded fairly typically once I'd left for campus. Sini called
me at lunchtime to say that she wanted me to pick up more diapers and
some apple juice on my way home, and then Pax got on the phone to
tell me all about Kiva's bath and that he'd dressed her all by
himself afterwards. I only had one afternoon class because the later
afternoon one had been cancelled, so I said I'd be home around two
o'clock. We all exchanged goodbyes, and I went off to my class.
It was
after class that things got
crazy.
I
arrived home with the items Sini had asked for, anticipating nothing
other than the usual welcoming reception from my wife. However,
the welcoming committee turned out to be Beau who came clattering
down the front steps and intercepted me before I ever set foot inside
the house.
"Hey,
Beau," I said. "Where are you off to in such a
hurry?"
"How'd
you know it was me?" he said. "It's downright scary how you
do that. I didn't even say anything yet, and you knew."
"Cowboy
boots. If you wore different shoes, you might be able to
trick me."
"I
doubt that."
I
laughed. "Maybe you can work on it."
"Yeah,"
Beau said.
I could
hear him shuffling his boots on the sidewalk in a way that usually
signalled either impatience or mental discomfort. I said, "Are
you in a hurry to be somewhere?"
"Sorta,"
he said. "Honestly, I'm kinda in a hurry not to be here."
"Did
something happen? You and Georgia didn't have a fight, did
you?"
"No,
it's nothin' like that. Me and Georgia are fine, but...I guess
you could say somethin' happened around here all right.
It's...uh...kinda crazy in the house right now. You might not
wanna go in."
"What do you mean? Why
wouldn't I want to go in?"
"Okay, maybe you do want to
go in, but there's somethin' you should know first."
"Okay," I said. "What
is it?"
“Well...”
he began, but then paused to take in a huge, audible breath before
plunging ahead with, “The house is plum full-up with folks from
outer space, and every single one of 'em is naked as a jaybird, and
they're all chirpin' and talkin' their funny language and...and I
think they're fixin' to eat up all the popcorn and chips in the
place.”
That
was, quite possibly, the largest number of words I'd ever heard my
friend Beau Ransom string together at one time. As if the shock of
hearing Beau make such a speech wasn't enough, the actual content of
his announcement was the thing that really blew my mind. It took me
several seconds to process everything he'd said. Finally, I managed,
“People...from outer space?”
“Yeah,”
Beau said.
I
don't know why I felt so shocked. I mean, I live with people from
another planet after all, and we always knew it was a possibility
that more people from their world might return for them some day.
Maybe it was the part about the place being 'plum full-up' that got
me. How many aliens does it take to make a house 'plum full-up' with
them?
“People
like Sini and Pax?” I asked, just to be sure. I've learned from
experience that it's never a good idea to assume anything, especially
where aliens are involved.
“Yeah.
I think they might be Pax's relations, come to fetch him home.
Oh...and there's a blue one, and he speaks English, and he...uh...was
wearin' one of Sapphire's big mixin' bowls on his head when I left.”
“Sounds
like a party,” I said.
“That's
one way of puttin' it.”
“How
many of them are there?”
“Four,”
Beau said. “There's three men and a lady. Well, there's six if you
count Sini and Pax. The biggest green one, I think he's in charge
'cause he's actin' all official, like maybe he wants us to take him
to our leader.”
“Seriously?”
“Yeah.
It's like an invasion from outer space or somethin'. You know, like
in the movies.”
“Did
you say they were chirping?”
“They're
all makin' that sound Pax makes when somebody gives him candy.”
Definitely
not a threat, I decided. In my admittedly limited experience,
I've observed that Erisans only chirp when they're excited or happy
about something. Pax does chirp for candy. He also chirps about trips
to the mall, french fries with ketchup, socks fresh from the dryer,
and meeting his friends at the park to play soccer. Sini most
frequently chirps for reasons I probably shouldn't talk about on the
internet. They make entirely different noises when they're angry or
trying to intimidate someone. I've heard Sini use her intimidation
noise on Michael quite a few times, and I've been on the receiving
end of it once or twice myself. Anyway, four chirping Erisans did
not, in my opinion, seem likely to be an invasion force from outer
space.
“I'd
better see what's going on,” I said.
“Good
luck with that,” said Beau. “I'm gonna meet Georgia at her work
and hang out there for a while for some...uh...normal
conversation.
No offense, but...y'know...”
“Yeah,
I know,” I said, even though I didn't really. Beau seemed pretty
anxious to leave and I couldn't tell if he was scared, confused, or
just plain freaked out by the exponential increase of bodies in the
house. Lamely, I said, “Tell Georgia hello from me.”
“Yeah,”
Beau said, and retreated hastily down the street without another
word.
I
entered the house to discover a general party atmosphere. The air was
filled with the scent of microwave popcorn. There was indeed a lot of
chirping going on and a lot of talking in both Erisan and English. I
made my way to the kitchen where most of the activity seemed to be
concentrated. Judging by the noise level alone, I would've guessed
there were a lot more than six people in the kitchen. Most of the
voices were unfamiliar to me but I did manage to pick out Sini's
voice. I set down my shopping bags at the threshold between the
hallway and kitchen, and then advanced a little further toward the
noisy group.
“Sini!”
I called into the din.
I
expected her to come over to me, or at least to call out my name in
response so I'd know she was there. She didn't approach me, but
someone else did, and by the time I realized it wasn't her I had no
time to do anything but stand there and be surprised.
“Brother!”
crowed an exuberant voice. Then, someone who was most assuredly not
my brother threw his arms around me in an embrace far too intimate
for strangers, and greeted me with a kiss. On
the mouth. It was a quick
closed-lip kiss, but that wasn't the the point. The perpetrator was
conspicuously naked and unquestionably male and, as you guys know,
that's not the direction in which I swing.
I
struggled away from the stranger, pushing him from me even as I
stumbled backward. I gasped out, “What the hell...?”
“You
are Tyler?” said the man.
“Yeah,
I'm Tyler. Who the hell are you?”
“Sini
described you perfectly,” he said, nonchalant as you please. His
English was flawless but his inflection was a lot like Sini's. “I
am sorry we did not call ahead, but your telecommunications are
incompatible with ours. We hope we are not imposing.”
“Imposing?”
I blurted. “Imposing?
Who
the hell are you, and what's going on around here?”
“You
are angry,” said the man.
“What
gave you the first clue?”
“I...can
feel you,” he said, sounding somewhat surprised, as if he'd just
then realized what he was capable of. “I feel your anger. We
believed we could not do this. It is an amazing discovery!”
“How
would you like to discover a good swift kick in the–”
“Tyler!”
Finally, there
was Sini, appearing at my side and catching me by the hand. “I can
feel you too, do not forget. You must be nice
to
your brother-in-law.”
“Brother-in-law?”
“This
is Kiro Taz,” she said. “My brother. In Earth culture, this makes
him your brother-in-law, does it not?”
“Uh...yeah.”
“We
are bonded, so in Erisan
culture he is now your brother as well.”
“Great.
As if having one crazy brother wasn't enough?”
“You
have a crazy brother?” Kiro asked. “Is he really insane?”
“No.
Michael is not insane.”
“Is he
pretty like you? Can I meet him?”
“He's
married,” I said, and thereafter did my best to ignore my newly
acquired and immensely annoying brother-in-law. “Sini,
seriously, what's going on around here?”
“Our
people have come to rescue us,” Sini informed me, and then chirped
a few times, evidently just to make sure I knew she was excited. “Is
it not wonderful news?”
“But,
you don't need to be rescued,” I said, feeling dumbfounded.
“I
know
that, but they did not,” Sini said. “Oh, Tyler...it is
miraculous!
Captain Piri is alive and he convinced our government that Pax and I
were alive too, and a ship has finally come for us. They say you and
Skyla and Kiva can come with us too.”
“Come
with you?”
“To
our world,” she said.
“Hang
on. You're leaving?
Don't you think we should talk about this?”
“Yes,
we will talk about it. There is time. Kiro and the others are going
to stay here tonight.”
“Here,
as in here in the house? Sapphire's going to love that.”
“We
would sleep outside, but it is too cold,” Kiro said.
“I
didn't expect you to sleep outside, but I presume there's a spaceship
or something, right?”
Kiro
laughed. “Of course there is a ship, but would you not wish to
spend the night if you landed on a new planet for the first time?”
“I
don't know. I've only ever been on this planet.”
“More's
the pity,” said my brother-in-law, and then added proudly. “I
have used an Earth expression! Am I not...totally
awesome?”
“Uh...”
I said.
“I
am cool like that,” Kiro said. “It is the way I roll.”
Before I
had a chance to make any kind of comment on my brother-in-law's
self-declared awesomeness, Sini pulled at my hand and said, “Come
and meet the others. Captain Piri really wants to meet you.”
Any
excuse to get away from Kiro Taz,
I thought and then instantly felt guilty. I didn't know the guy. It
was unfair to decide I didn't like him after only five minutes in his
presence. Of course, he had managed to push a great many of my
metaphorical buttons during that five minutes, but still... My
conscience reminded me that first impressions aren't everything and,
after all, Kiro was standing among strangers on a planet that was
entirely new to him. I might not make such a great first impression
either if I were visiting an alien world.
I
allowed Sini to lead me across the room where it seemed that most of
our guests were gathered near the doorway between the kitchen and
dining room. My ears caught the unmistakeable rustling of chip bags
and a lot of crunching noises. The popcorn smell was strongest over
there as well. Beau was right. These guys really did seem to be
enjoying our snack foods, and I didn't doubt that they were capable,
as Beau had surmised, of eating up all the chips and popcorn in the
place.
I was
able to pick out four distinct voices, one of which belonged to Pax.
Three of the four, including Pax, were speaking Erisan. The fourth
just seemed to be making random squeaks and chirps that didn't sound
quite...normal. I don't know
how I knew that, but something about the fourth Erisan voice seemed
odd to me.
I
didn't get to contemplate it for very long because I suddenly found
myself having to brace for impact as Pax jumped up from his place on
the floor with the other Erisans and launched himself at me. I caught
him in an awkward hug. He chirped repeatedly and he was trembling all
over.
“Take
it easy, buddy,” I admonished him. “You know you're too big to
tackle me like that.”
“Tyler!
My family came!” he practically shouted, completely ignoring my
gentle scolding. “I so happy!”
“Inside
v–” I began and then thought, to
hell with it.
Our kitchen was full of alien visitors and I was worried about Pax
raising his voice in the house? I shrugged and then settled on, “I
can feel you being happy.”
“We
has lots of good energy around here today!”
“I
can tell. Will you introduce me to your family?”
“Yes!”
He released me from his dangerously enthusiastic embrace. Then he
grabbed my hand and tugged me down so that I ended up kneeling. I
supposed that was only logical since it seemed that everyone else was
sitting on the floor.
I
said, “Be careful, Pax.”
“Sorry,”
he said, but he didn't seem the least bit contrite. He let go my hand
and I guessed he was pointing as he introduced his parents. “This
Suvi. She my mother. Piri, my father, and Jex, my other father.”
“Nice
to meet you,” I said, because I couldn't think of anything else.
Pax
laughed, and I felt his fingers come to rest on my forearm. "This
Tyler," he said, presumably to his three parents. "He my
other other father."
"Do
any of you speak English?" I asked.
None of
them had the opportunity to answer as Pax piped up. "Yes! Piri
and Suvi speak a little. Piri say they learned it on the ship.”
“I
think Captain Piri knows the most,” Sini said from behind me. “I
was teaching him...before.”
Before,
as in Piri's first voyage to our solar system, before the disastrous
events that left Pax and Sini stranded on an alien planet with the
belief that Piri and all their other shipmates were lost to them
forever. Sini and Pax don't like to talk about that. Even at that
moment, with Captain Piri alive and whole in front of them, it seemed
that Sini couldn't bring herself to make more than a vague reference
to it.
I
couldn't blame her, really. There was no way I could even begin to
imagine what it must've been like for her to think that she was all
alone in a strange and virtually unknown place with no hope of ever
seeing her people again. Now, to have four of them here in our
kitchen with who knows how many others in a ship somewhere relatively
near, must've made the years she'd been on our world seem like a
surreal dream to her. I know that's probably what I'd be thinking if
I were hopelessly lost and then somebody I thought was dead suddenly
appeared and promised to take me home.
The
whole thing was enough to make my head spin. It was far too much to
process then and there, so I decided the best thing to do was to try
and focus only on what was happening in the moment. Captain Piri
wanted to meet me. Sini and Pax wanted me to meet him. Fair enough.
I said,
“Which one of you is Captain Piri?”
"Piri
here," came the resonant reply. Piri's voice is rich and strong,
and a little deeper than I'd imagined an Erisan voice could be. "I
touch?"
"You
want to touch me?" I said.
Pax
chirped and then said something to his father in Erisan. He told me,
"I tell him to only touch the hands. I say it not nice to touch
Earth people everywhere."
"Thank
you," I said. "You can tell him that he can touch me if he
wants to. They can all touch me if they want to.”
“Okay,”
Pax said. He relayed that information to his parents and then he
instructed me to hold out my hand, palm up. An Erisan's first touch
is always on the palm of someone's hand, he explained. Evidently,
under normal circumstances, it moves on from there. I did as Pax
advised and, a moment later, somebody was stroking my palm lightly
with a fingertip.
“Piri?”
I ventured.
“This
good?” Piri said. “It...okay?”
“Yes.
It's okay.”
“You
feel like me,” he said.
He
sounded astonished, and I wondered what he'd expected Earth people to
feel like. Beside Piri, one of the others gave a derisive little
snort. I guessed it was Suvi, since the next thing I heard was a
female voice saying, “It have skin like us. It feel like us.”
“He,”
I corrected automatically. “Not it.
I'm a guy. Uh...male. You know.”
Suvi
snorted again. “Male? I not see male. You–” she trailed off
into her own language.
Whatever
Suvi had said must've been funny because Pax and Sini were both
giggling. Sini said, “She does not believe you are male, Tyler. It
is because of your clothes. She cannot see that you are male.”
“Well,
I'm not going to prove it to her,” I said, which only caused my
wife to laugh harder.
From
somewhere off to my right I heard Kiro say, “Will you prove it to
me?”
“No,”
I said.
Suvi
declined to touch me after that little exchange, so that left only
Jex who hadn't yet been properly introduced. Jex seemed nervous, and
both Pax and Piri had to coax him a little before he would consent to
place his fingertips against my palm. I said hello to him. He didn't
respond, and I wondered if he was too shy to speak or if he simply
hadn't understood what I was saying. When I tried again to speak to
him, he made a soft, nondescript moaning sound which I could not
interpret.
“Is
he okay?” I asked.
“He
fine,” Pax said. “He always make that noise when he confused.”
“You
and Sini don't make that noise when you're confused.”
“Jex
different,” Pax said. “He...um...blind
in the ears."
Despite
the situation, I laughed out loud at that. "He's what?"
"He
doesn't hear anything,” Pax said. “His ears don't work. It sort
of like being blind, but different."
"Very
different, in my opinion," I said. "When people can't hear,
we say they're deaf."
"Deaf.
Jex...deaf."
That
explained why his vocalizations seemed so unusual. He couldn't hear
himself making the non-word sounds, so he had no way of knowing that
his noises were different than everyone else's. I asked Pax, "How
can I talk to him? I'd like to say hello."
"Jex
talk with signs, but...that not very good for you," Pax said.
"Maybe you can do..." he finished up with a word in Erisan.
"What's
that?"
"We
do something in our minds," Pax said. "I not know...I don't
know if there a word in English, but it like...I think about what
I want to say and Jex hear me with his mind."
"Telepathy?"
I turned toward Sini. "I thought you guys couldn't do that."
"Most
people cannot," Sini said. "Jex is of the Emri."
"The
what?"
"The
Emri. It is...a religion? No...I do not think that is the right word.
A philosophical group or perhaps...an order? Anyone who is gifted
with certain mental powers must be sent to live with the Emri, and
they have many rules for themselves. They do not believe in
technology and they have rituals. I do not know if that is the
right word, either."
"What
kind of rituals?"
"Secret
ones."
"Everything
a big secret with the Emri," Pax said, "They live in a
castle and they not ever allowed to leave, except to buy food and
soap and stuff, and then they go back right away. And normal
people not ever allowed to go in. I saw it one time, from the
outside, and I got scared and Jex got scared too, and then Suvi say
we both silly."
"Many
people are afraid of the Emri," Sini said. "I do not
think being scared was silly at all."
"Pax,
if the Emri can't leave and other people can't get in, how did Jex
end up with you?" I asked.
"It
a true love story," Pax said dramatically, and I could almost
picture him clasping his hands together and pretending to swoon.
"Piri ran away with him in the night. It like in a fairy tale
where the prince gets rescued."
I don't
know of any fairy tales where the prince gets rescued but,
then again, I've never heard any Erisan fairy tales. Maybe in
Erisan stories, princes need saving just as often as princesses do. I
wonder if Erisan has a phrase equivalent to 'damsel in distress' that
they use for guys in those rescue-the-prince stories? In any case I'm
pretty sure I understood what Pax meant, and I have to say I was
intrigued. There were about a million questions I wanted to ask.
As it
turned out, I wasn't the only one with rampant curiosity that needed
satisfying. Despite Pax's warning about not touching me anywhere
except the hands, once Jex got over his initial shyness he seemed
unable to restrain himself. He touched my forearm and then my
shoulder. I let him. He wanted to touch my ears next and made an
almost-chirp of delight when he discovered their shape. The next
place his fingers came to rest was on my face. I held perfectly still
while he drew a line from my cheek to my jaw with the tip of one
finger.
All of a
sudden, he let out an alarmed-sounding squeak. His hand dropped away
from me, and I felt a slight shifting of air and heard a scuffling
sound as he scooted backwards across the floor. Piri said something
in their language, and Suvi offered another one of her dismissive
snorts.
“What's
wrong?” I asked. “What happened?”
“Hair,”
said Piri.
“Hair?”
“On
your face,” Sini explained, coming to the rescue of both of us.
“Jex realized you have hair on your face. It startled him.”
“I
don't–” was my immediate reaction, but then I remembered that I
hadn't shaved that morning and I was sporting a day's growth of
stubble. I reached up to brush a hand across my own chin. For me, a
day-old beard doesn't really amount to much and I couldn't see what
was so startling about it. Maybe if I hadn't shaved for a week,
that'd be something to talk about. I said, “Okay. Facial hair.
What's the big deal about that?”
“Erisan
males do not have it,” Sini said. “He says it is very...alien.”
“It
seems you have made an excellent first impression, brother,” Kiro
said far too cheerfully as he dropped onto the floor beside me. “A
hairy pink alien. You are like something from an adventure story. It
is all very exciting.”
“You–”
I began.
“May I
touch your face hair as well?” Kiro asked.
“No!”
I said. “And don't call me brother.”
“But,
I am your brother now,” Kiro said. “What should I call you, if
not brother?”
“I
have a name. You could try using that.”
"You
are angry again."
I
sighed. “No, I'm not angry. I'm just...overwhelmed, I guess.
It's not every day that people from another world land in your
kitchen. I mean, it's a lot to take in.”
“We
did not land inside.”
“You
know what I mean.”
“It is
overwhelming for us also,” Kiro said. “I have read and watched
everything that our observer ships have ever recorded about your
world and I have studied your language, but it did not prepare me for
the reality of being here. It is the same for Piri and the others.”
“Yeah,
I suppose it is.”
“You
may be comforted that we will not be here very long. Once we are
gone, you may resume your life as it was, and we will resume ours.”
“About
that–”
“Tyler,
I think we should talk about that later,” Sini interrupted. “In
private.”
“Fine.”
“Right
now, we must make sure everyone is comfortable,” she went on. “We
must be certain to cook enough vegetables for dinner, and we must
decide where everyone will sleep tonight.”
I didn't
bother to point out that Sapphire was the one who would ultimately
decide where – and if – our otherworldly visitors would be staying. I could just picture Sapphire's reaction when she found out these guys intended to crash
here for the night. It was hard to imagine her saying no, but I was
sure she'd have questions that would require straight answers. Kiro,
the Erisans' de facto
spokesperson, didn't seem capable of straight answers, so that
encounter ought to be fun. Truth be told, I really didn't want to be
around for it.
Abruptly,
I said, “They're not sleeping in our room.”
“I
would like to see your room,” Kiro said.
“There's
no way--”
“I
will show you, Kiro,” Pax cut me off in mid-protest. “I can show
you our beds, and my toys and Skyla's toys, and all my socks!”
“Socks?”
Kiro echoed.
“Socks
are cool and awesome,” Pax said. “They one of my favourite Earth
things. I also like ice cream and soccer. Oh...and ketchup! You
have not lived until you eat
vegetables with ketchup.”
“Perhaps
I will try this...ketchup,” Kiro remarked. “We would all like to
wash. Do you have a bathing pool here?”
“It
not a pool exactly,”
Pax told him. “It like a small box and only one person can fit in.
Come with me. I show you.”
“Okay,”
Kiro said.
“Tyler,
you come too,” Pax said. “You can tell about the parts I don't
know.”
“What
is there to tell that you don't know?” I said. “You can do it by
yourself.”
“But–”
“Pax,”
Sini said, and then continued in Erisan. It sounded like she was
scolding him.
Pax
spoke to her in the same language and then said something to Kiro,
who also replied in Erisan. Then, Kiro got up from his place on the
floor, and I heard him and Pax heading for the stairs together.
That
was the point at which Piri and Suvi both started talking at once. I
caught Pax's name and the words for child
and parent, but that
was all. Sini's response was none too gentle, and I didn't even want
to guess what she might've been saying to her former captain and his
wife...partner...whatever.
At that moment, Beau's
desire to escape suddenly made sense to me. As if the mere idea of our
house being overrun by aliens wasn't jarring enough, the tangle of
unfamiliar voices shouting unintelligible words was almost too much.
Hoping I would go unnoticed, I retraced my path through the kitchen
and back to the front door. Maybe I'd just slip my boots and coat
on again and go for a walk around the block.
I
might've been able to make a clean getaway if Cassie and Radek hadn't
chosen that exact moment to arrive home from school.
Cassie
asked me more or less the same question as I'd asked Beau when I caught him leaving, and I gave
her pretty much the same answer; our house was full of aliens.
Cassie's reaction to the news, however, was vastly different than
mine had been. She let out a little squeal and said, “Is it Pax's
family? I'll bet he's so excited! He has two dads, you know.”
“I
know,” I said. “I've met them, and his mother.”
“Oh
my gosh! Really? It's
really Pax's family? I have to see them!” and with that, she
raced past me in the direction of the kitchen. I don't think she even took her boots off.
Radek
let out an audible sigh. “It's going to be totally mad around here
from now on, isn't it?”
“Yeah,”
I said. “I imagine so.”
I think
Sapphire was just as shocked as I had been to encounter our visitors, although I have to say
she handled it a lot better than I did. I'm not sure she was entirely pleased with the idea of letting them spend the night but, as I predicted, she didn't refuse them. Piri solved the problem of where they'd all sleep by informing Sapphire that the living room would work just fine for their needs. Actually, what he said was, "We sleep this room." But, I think Sapphire got the message. The issue of what to feed them for breakfast was also settled by Piri who declared, "Tomorrow eat here. Coffee and Earth foods."
Coffee. As if they aren't already energetic enough.
I noticed Sapphire never asked how the Erisans knew about coffee. Maybe she just figured some things were better left unknown.
For the remainder of the afternoon and evening, our house was a scene of utter pandemonium. The Erisans wanted to meet - and touch - all the Earth people, and everyone seemed eager to share details of their respective worlds. Piri fell madly in love at first sight with my piano, and Kiro fell madly in love at first sight with Remi. Thanks in no small part to Cassie, Jex began a love affair with chocolate. Suvi tried (unsuccessfully) to make first contact with Sapphire's dog.
Through this mad tapestry of conversation and cultural exchange, the common thread was the subject of Pax and Sini's return to Eris. Sini and Pax chattered excitedly about it with the other Erisans and with our roommates. Pax announced at one point that when he returned to his home, he would go to school and learn how to be a starship pilot like his father. Sini, much to my astonishment, also said she'd like to return to work in space. I had no response for that, but it didn't seem to matter. Nearly everyone was ignoring me, including Sini.
When it was finally time for bed, I was only too grateful to seek the sanctuary of our room. Sini came upstairs with me. I was looking forward to snuggling under the covers with her, safely away from the crowd downstairs but, as things turned out, Sini had other ideas. She'd only come to our room to take off her clothes. She intended to sleep with her brother and the rest of our visitors. As you might've guessed, I didn't take that revelation very well.
Now, as I'm
writing this, the only people here in my room are Skyla and me.
Pax, Sini and Kiva are all in the living room with the
other Erisans. The aliens came prepared with some kind of
inflatable cushions to sleep on and a neat little machine like a tiny
air compressor to inflate them with. Sapphire provided them with a few blankets and
sleeping bags and they constructed an impressive nest in which,
apparently, they're all sleeping together.
Nobody
invited me to join them. Sini did try to take Skyla with her, but
Skyla wasn't buying into the plan at all. She clung to me and
screamed as if she were in mortal danger and refused even to let Sini
touch her. Eventually, Sini gave up attempting to convince her to go
downstairs and just left her with me.
Maybe I
overreacted, but the moment Sini walked out the door of our room I
felt as if she'd abandoned Skyla and me. I couldn't do anything to
prevent the dull ache in my chest and the tightness in my throat as I
listened to her footfalls recede. Maybe it was the stress of the day
catching up with me, or maybe it was Sini's choice to sleep with her
brother and friends instead of with me that was the proverbial last
straw but, whatever the reason, I decided I didn't have the will to
fight my emotional response. It was too much of an effort to keep
myself from crying. I guess that's a pretty unmanly thing to admit,
but it's true. There was no one but Skyla to witness it, and she
wouldn't judge me for my tears. Besides, she was generating plenty of
her own.
Sitting
on the floor with Skyla in my arms, I rocked us both back and forth
for a while. Ironically, it was Skyla who stopped crying first, but
she let me hold her until my tears were spent. Afterwards, I tucked
us both into our beds and Skyla quickly fell asleep.
I lay
awake for a long time, listening to the sounds of the house and
trying to make sense of my jumbled thoughts. Part of me had hoped
Sini would come back when she sensed how upset I was, but she didn't.
I supposed she wasn't paying attention to any of my emotions just
then, and thinking of that made my feelings of abandonment grow even
more acute. In desperation, I tried to distract myself with other
thoughts, but my mind kept coming back to this one idea. She
would rather be with them than with me.
Of
course she'd rather be with them,
the rational part of my brain retorted. These are her
people.
Intellectually,
I knew that made sense, but understanding it didn't make it hurt any
less.
The
same two thoughts chased each other around my brain for what felt
like hours until I was utterly exhausted. At last, my body lost its battle with consciousness and I fell asleep. My
sleep wasn't particularly restful. It was plagued with bad dreams.
I knew I must've been thrashing around a lot because I woke from a
particularly vivid nightmare to discover my body was right on the
edge of the mattress and my arm was hanging over the side of the bed.
I
gave up on trying to get any more rest after that. I climbed out of
bed to check on Skyla and found that she, at least, was dozing
peacefully. Satisfied that Skyla was all right, I concluded that the time might best be used in writing down everything that had happened during the
day. I apologize if what I've written here doesn't make a lot of sense. I'm still trying to sort it out, myself.
I'll confess that I'm not
sure how I should feel right now. On one hand, I'm pleased
to see Sini and Pax so happy to be reunited with their long-lost
family members, but on the other hand I can't shake the sense of
dread that comes over me when I realize that all our lives were
irrevocably changed today by the presence of these people in our
home. We can never, as Kiro suggested, resume our lives as they
were, and that idea scares me a lot. I mean, how can my life ever
be the same as it was before, now that I'm living with the knowledge
that my brother-in-law is from outer space? There's just no easy
way to assimilate a fact like that.
And what
if Sini decides to leave with them? Sini and I haven't talked about
it yet, and maybe that's a good thing because I have no idea what I
might say. This afternoon she seemed to take it as a foregone
conclusion that the girls and I would leave too, but I'm not sure
that would be the best thing for any of us. I know that I once said
I'd leave everything I'd ever known to be able to stay with Sini and
I'm sure I meant it at the time but, when I said that, I don't think
I believed something like this could really happen. Now, I'm not certain I can make that choice, either for me or my daughters.
One of the worst things about all this is there's no one I can ask for advice or help. I'd say it's a safe bet that no other person in the entire world has ever been faced with the decision of whether or not to follow his spouse into outer space and take up residence on an alien planet. This is a situation unique to me. It's terrifying to contemplate, but even if Sini and I talk about it, I am the one who must ultimately choose if I will go or stay.
I don't know what to do.
If you love something, let it go...
But I can't...I can't...and I don't know how I could ever bring myself to leave everyone and everything that's familiar. Do you see the impossibility of it all?
I'm going to stop writing now. I will let you know what happens tomorrow. My maternal grandmother, Nanna Seraphine, was fond of saying that things always look better in the morning. I hope Nanna's counsel turns out to be right this time.
Aw, I hope things work out for you, I really do. Good luck with the extended family!
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